Digital Monotypes on cream Rives RFK paper

 

These two images are a result of a recent injury (I fractured my rib), resultant pain meds that did not work and finally finding one that did.  I have joked that you could call the series pain and percocet, but the underlying feelings are more than that. 

 

Injuring a rib is awful because you can not stop breathing so therefore, everything hurts - a breathing, a cough, forgetting that you can not reach with your arm, even just trying to get into bed in a comfortable position was excruciating.  I won't even go into how a sneeze feels!  When I had the med that did not work well with my body chemistry, it was bad enough that I literally had the sweats and was so short of breath that I bordered on hyperventilating.  I had read so many articles on how awful this particular injury is that I thought it was just supposed to be that way.  Thankfully when I followed up with my family doctor, he recognized that the pain relief was inadequate and explained that some drugs just do not work for some people while a closely related variant will have excellent results.  We switched meds and it brought so much relief!  I could finally do my deep breaths every hour without feeling like I was going to drop over from pain!  Of course it still hurt, but the amount of pain was finally managable, which was a dramatic relief!

 

Anyhow, these are not meant as literal representations of what I went through, rather a representation of some of my mental states and feelings during the ordeal.  You can read into them however you like.